Hello.

I obviously havent been blogging for a very long time. i just dont have time I guess.

I came for school 1 hour late today. On purpose. Because we were given permission to come late since we came back from the Singapore Conference Hall at midnight or something. I skipped pe. Yeyy thank goodness Im wearing a blouse okay. Hahah.

Im heartbroken right now. Well duh its because of a boy.

His name is Saiful and hes Malay. He goes to a neighbourhood school but that doesnt stop me from liiking him. Hes so fucking hot! He goes to my religious class. Fyi, Im a Muslim.

The class was yesterday. Saiful looked at me a lot of times. His friend likes me. I know he does. He only ever flirts with ME and not any other of the girls. I mean his friend. Id be over the moon if Saiful himself flirted with me of course.

The whole class knows and theres one more guy whos jealous of him. Hes from a good school but hes damn ugly. Unlike Saiful.

Saiful stared at me lots of times. I dont like him just cos hes hot tho. Thats half the reason. ONLY half. Hes with the cool crowd but hes not scared to speak his mind and be different. He isnt the skirtchasing type tho. He does take notice of girls but doesnt drool down his shirt mentally undressing them.

Hes also really funny. His friend said my voice was sexy. I dont think so. He was only doing to score with me. The bloody motherfucker.

But when I went home with a friend who goes to school near him she said he has a girlfriend. I dont know what to think anymore. Im heartbroken. If he has a gf then I shouldnt approach him. But if he really doesnt and he likes me back, but if I thought he has a gf then Id waste an oppurtunity.

The only ever people who I love and love me back are those I dont even know. I met this guy at my cousins wedding. He was ushering people and helping to clean the tables. He was really hot and he was SO sweet. He kept staring at me and gave me this teeny weeny smile when he passed by. I gave him back a smile and things started going reallllyyyy well between us. Heheh. I was too shy to get his name tho. But it wouldnt be much use. He lives on the other side of the world. My world at least. Sheesh. But he was really hot. REALLY HOT. He had bloody washboard abs!!!! I know cos I accidentally saw him changing. It wasnt MY fault. I was chasing my nephew around. Hes a baby dammit. He went straight to him. My gosh he blushed his fucking ass off when he saw me see him. Omfg. I was blushing the shit out of me too. I picked up my nephew and ran off. I DIDNT EVEN GET HIS FUCKING NAME!!!! WAHHHHHH!!!!

Sheesh. Grrrrrrrrrrr. But really. I dont know what to think. Im not even sure if hes the right guy for me. Hes just like the guy next door type. But I like guynextdoors. I like guynextdoors better than the rich ones. Theyre more straighforward and theyre funner even if theyre not as rich. Theyre really more amusing and they dont have like airs or anything. I like them.

Oh gosh. The bell just motherfucking rang. I gotta go. Im in school. The only reason Im blogging is because I just happen to be in the motherfucking computer lab.

Sac rocks baby. Especially fadhillah. Heheh shes so damn fucking good!!!!! Plus she SUPER HOT. SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER HOT. Gosh I sound like im a bloody fucking lesbian. Im not. I fucking swear. She has a fan club. Guys go crazy over her. When she dresses up its like shes a fucking KNOCKOUT and you can see all the guys drool over her. Shes smart and really serious about her work. But shes fun too.

Alrights I better go. I need to get back to class the fucking bell just rang. Fucking shit. Bye fuckers!