Hi. I know this blog is very very stagnant. But it's not like anyone but me gets to read it right. So what the hell.

I hate my fucking class! Okay maybe not my fucking class. Just my fucking class chairman. She's really very irritating okay. Dammit la!

Well actually there was something going on between me and her since march this year. And now it's September. So it's been, what, six months? But no one but me and her knew about it until august! You see, she's really popular. Whereas I am not that popular. That's one of the things I don't understand about why she likes me instead of anyone else. But never mind that. The thing is, since she has so many good friends she can talk to, she told them about us. And then the friends told theirs and now a lot of people know. And so now a lot of girls tend to giggle and point and stare at me. If you feel jealous hearing about this, you can have her. I swear it man. I've had enough of all these popular people knowing me. It's weirddd. They all look the same you know...you'd think I'd be glad to have the most popular girl in the world to actually like me more than a friend, but I'm not! Call me strange, whatever you want. I just wish she hadn't ever felt like that before.

And when I look at myself in the mirror, I just can't find what it is she thinks is so appealing about me. Maybe she's just plain weird. Then again, she's always been very very opinionated. She's an analytical person...she's taking lit as one of her subjects next year. And guess what. We are taking the same subject combination next year!! Hallelujah. Seriously. God! I don't know how I'm going to be able to live through two more years of torment and teasings that come with the fact that the most popular girl in the world likes you. Sheesh! I can't ever be myself around her anymore. She has a very good sense of hearing, mind you. She could hear a pin drop halfway across a big, noisy classroom!

She used to be my dance partner. And she kept telling me what to do. That was back in March, and I guess things weren't heated up between us yet.

I did nurse a crush on her too, though. But only before from march to july. For her, it's from like April to September! One month more than me. Sheesh!

Too bad I'm kind of used to lots of people staring at me all the time. They've been doing it for almost two years now. I don't think I take notice when she does stare at me. If she does it often, that is. And thank god for that! My friend says she stares a lot. Dammit. If I noticed every time she did, I think I'd have mutated into some kind of mute freak or something.

She's angry at me. Haha. The loser. For ignoring her. But what the hell am I supposed to do? She should have gotten the message by now! She's the best person at everything I've ever known! I'm hardly good at one concentrated thing I put my heart to! She's uber-cool, I'm not someone you'd cast a second glance at.

I have to face her again on Monday. And all the torments and humiliation of being crushed on by a girl like that. It's Saturday, mind you! Only one more day left! Maybe I should start treating her more like the bitch she is. Then she could stop crushing me.

God, help me! ><